Is It Summer Yet?

I am seriously suffering from the winter blues.  I want to be able to go outside and sit with a glass of ice water & the 10 latest things I'm reading at once.

  I want to feel the warm breeze blowing through my hair.  Hear the sounds of the birds and catch a sly glance of them at the bird feeder, since now that we got rid of our killer cat I can once again have one outside without feeling like I was louring them to their death.

Oh, can't forget the phone so I don't have to run into the house to answer it since for some reason my kids seem to be def to it.  Even though I still have to run into the house to break up fights, get drinks and food, and anything else the kids feel like distracting me with.

Now I look over at our new fence just partially put up.  The empty place I would like to have a quiet, soothing pond and some fish, once again I can now have fish since killer is gone.  The other empty place I would like to have my raised garden so I feel like I am contributing to going green.  Oh, let's not even go to the front of the house...

Well I guess no matter what season it is, my life is never going to be the way I have it in my head.   I guess it's the perfectionist in me or the fact I don't stay content very long.  I'd like to blame it on my kids and husband but I guess that wouldn't be fair, completely. :)

I have too long a history of looking past the blessings and wishing for something more.  More room, more color, more help, more sleep, more things done around the house....  When will I just relax and enjoy the blessings and not sweat the small stuff?  Or try to tackle the big stuff myself without God, all that gives me is a headache and a family who would like to kick me out of the house until it passes.

I have taken one step closer to a peaceful freedom.  I am reading ONE THOUSAND GIFTS  by Ann Voskamp.  I have truly fallen in love with this book!  Now if I can just stop procrastinating and finish reading it!

Check it out I promise you'll be blessed!

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Suddenly

I always have struggled with being discontent. Wanting to rush God along with what I know is my calling and never being able to relate that what I'm doing now is leading me to where God wants me. In the meantime I was always supposed to be right where I am.

When I first heard this SuperChick song it hit so close to home so I thought I'd share this part of me captured in someone else's song.

SUDDENLY

  She feels lost in her own life,

 treading water just to keep from slipping under,

and she wonders if she's where she's supposed to be.

Tired of trying to do it right,

  her dreams are just to far away to see how steps she's making,

might be taking her to who she'll be.

And Suddenly it isn't what it used to be,
  and after all this time it worked out just fine.
And suddenly I am where I'm supposed to be,
  and after all these tears I was supposed to be here.

She feels locked in her own life,

  scared of what she might lose  if she moves away from who she was,

and she's afraid of being free.

There's a way she knows is right,

  she can't feel the things she knows,

and so each step she's taking is a step of faith towards who she'll be.

And Suddenly it isn't what it used to be,
  and after all this time it worked out just fine.
And suddenly I am where I'm supposed to be,
  and after all these tears I was supposed to be here.

                                                ~SuperChick~